RE-PAYING MY SINS..!

Sometimes I wonder, why the beautiful things happen to people

You then try so hard to protect it and the worst, you started depending on it..

The more you live, the more wiser you will be. Someone just said to me.

Yes, I do know I'm young and I may not know the world much better.

But, this life I have, is just pushing me to the limits which some times unbearable.

Listen this might sound so lame but,

Once I thought the love can be the most amazing feeling you can ever have..

I haven't tried any of them drugs that they 'were' talking on the TV all day, but small me happened to believed that some of them are addictive, yes just like you do believe.

Trust me on this, I got lost in this love and I was doomed. pretty much you would say "I got royally fucked in the name of this LOVE."

Why I think this love is worse than them drugs, cause you don't get nothing but just breaking in to pieces. Some might agree with me on this, but believe it or not it's one of them feeling which you don't want to experience.

So I suffered.

And then started realizing that you don't appreciate this love when you truly getting it from someone.

But once you have lost it, you will do possibly everything you can, to get it back even you push your limits out of all the boundaries.

But what can you do more if you can't get it back..? you simply give-up just to make them happy. Thinking you will never love again.

Look, you and me we both know eventually we will fall in love again with someone.

it will happen again sooner or later. So it happened to me again after a while just about a year ago.

But like the others i was afraid, it was just a moment. A sudden thing which took less than 10 seconds i guess.

I didn't want to express my feelings, I just let it play and the same time I re-winding my past and learnt from my mistakes.

So, I started to care about you,

Got to know you little by little,

Pictured the real person inside you.

I actually adore you no matter what happened and I still do.

Now, I don't think you will ever come across this note, but this is for you..

I had a good laugh with you.

I care about you.

I started to miss you, cause I hardly see you.

Something filling me inside, in each time i saw you.

Always try to make the best smile on your face.

Trying to watch my lyrics so badly, cause sometimes you get me wrong and I can't fix it.

It's too late, feel like I'm falling in to you, but I'm trying to figure it out still.

In a way I'm doing a wrong thing, but I can't unfold this feeling for you.

I will say this to you one day, but that will be too late.

And I will miss you for a very long time I guess. i just don't want to use this word 'FOREVER'

Just a little prayer to who ever controlling things from the above,

If this the Love Again... How long do I have to RE-PAY MY SINS..?

Because I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE MEANS....!

p.s: This is straight from the heart. Not many will understand. but i hope you will read this one day..!!